~BANG~

Today, Elvis took Patrick's key..so he cant go out..i got a call from him..then i rush back home to let him out...give him my keys..then after that in class..he give it back to me....i sat behind Dorcas..then..i ask if someone's sitting beside her or not..then she say no..but she want to reserve it for Terry...XD....im jealous....so..watever lor...after malaysian studies...went to Ming Tian with Dorcas, Terry, Leon....when we are almost leaving...i stand up and hit my head on the Sign Board...for ordering the drinks...everyone looked at me....paiseh...but..im okay la...then now..swelling up liao...haha....today...Dorcas was tired...she didnt sleep at all last night....her eyes are in pain...and walk also abit not stable....then..i ask her..." can walk ma?" then she angry me lor...she said," God give me leg so i can walk"...then i straightaway speechless and sad...i just worried about her ba....and got this kind of reply. Haizzz....what to do? emo also no use....

~huh?!~

Today..go to class..then..change class again...then change again..cuz' the air con not working properly...it's too hot...and..went inside...then dorcas sat beside me...then william choose our design packaging...dorcas was making something using string...after finished art class at J4...dorcas, terry, shaz, leon and me go sunway pyramid to have lunch...by the time we finished lunch...we are late for class....then we head into the AVH ( audio visual hall) then...sit at far behind...first time sit there....feels different....haha...after almost finished class...dorcas finally complete making the string thing...she spent alot time making it....and her hands cram 2 times from making it....hmm...today was just about that....haha...

~Ouch~

Today, hmm....thinking about presentation...then i wanna do breakdance...then...ask leekee to teach me...then...i learn from him a few steps....from morning until lunch...then after eating...rest about few hours..then continue again...finally better at it..but still not so stable...so...dance more...then dance even more...then...my hand got blister...skin almost feel off...haha....then i wear patrick's glove on my blistered hand..dance some more...and then i take off the glove before i want to go out..i try to do it again...then..."OUCHH"...hurt my blister....skin rubbed against the floor..almost come off...then..i don't want to do it...maybe later try again...but..my whole body very tired already..muscle pains, blister, exhausted etc etc..Hope tomorrow will be okay....today whole day just about that..dancing and such...haik haik...no time for homework....ok..that's all...Take Care~

~Okay~

Today..wake up at 9++..almost 10..eat breakfast then....Patrick and Ben need go out..so...i stay at home with leekee and xiaofei...eat instant noodle...after eating half...stomachache...so i fast fast finished it....after that..the 3 of us go to sunway pyramid....go there buy clothings...bought 2 tshirts..haha...its abit too fit..haha..so..i need to be fit...oh yeah....hmm...then..stomachache again...endure it..then go to see leekee practice breakdance...at studio...its just near sunway pyramid......i just dance abit...and see leekee breaking...but..i learn new things lor...haha....but..im tired and weak already..after that straight go home...then suddenly on the way home...Dorcas call me...then she ask me things about her blog...someone wrote bad things about her....yesterdat i just saw that...and i'm still blurr blurr about it...hope she can settle it....hmm...today...i think something wrong with the time...its moving too fast...XD....a lil' too fast don't ya think....hmm..that's all i wanna blog for now...see got anything to update or not...haha...im too easy to jealous...even the smallest thing can make me jealous....haik haik...i also don't like that....but..i am who i am....

Just back from pyramid again...wa...today used extremely over extreme overbudget....almost Rm100...buy the things i need..such as...shower gel, apples XD, breakfast and etc etc...Ohya...when going down the escalator...saw a couple....WAH!! so nice....the girl standing higher than her bf..then she hug him..and cuddle with him....in the open...my friends and i saw dao it...the 3 of us so envy them....i also want my special someone to treat me like that...not afraid or embarrassed to show our love...just like only the two of us in the world...haha...think too far...but..i will really love that...haha...

~Sad~

Been feeling down lately...because of love....haik haik...i don't know what to do anymore....the girl i like...she with someone...but not as couple...but as best friend...and..i'm not exactly sure myself that its real or not...maybe he lie to me...today most of the time i'm with Dorcas...but...i always hurt to see Terry and her together...feels jealous....then they switch name tags to wear....and Terry wear Dorcas' hoodie...its makes me so jealous...to see them like that...haha...but i think it's okay...if they are just best friend....
Today, Dorcas is sick...and...it got worse in the CG lab....fever started..then she feels tired....i'm worried...then...i help her refill her water....she don't want to admit it...in the morning...still saying she's MAN....after finished class...she go back first...then my friends and I went to Sunway Pyramid...A&W....then suddenly...a sms from Dorcas..she say she almost bang a car...she fell asleep then luckily the car horn her....so...i more worried....I message to her a few times but..she didn't reply....then i call her...listening to her voice in the phone...my heart is aching...painfully...she sounded like no energy liao...so..i talk abit then hung up...after that..i chat with Terry...ask about Dorcas...he say she is ok....then im relieved abit lor...then he like bu shuang me....so..watever la...then...after all that...im emo again....luckily i have my friends to support me....go to their room and see some funny things...then go McD at 3am...don't know why also...they planning from yesterday...haha...

~Emo~

Today was saddest day since coming here..in KL....It involves the girl i like...Dorcas...and a guy name Terry....i think he like her la...not sure...haha...at first..i sit beside Dorcas..then the lecturer class started...my group and i were called up there to answer some questions....then..after i go back..i saw Terry sitting in my seat...so..i sat in his place instead...haik haik..always like that de...so..bu shuang lo...then Patrick Chang come and talk to me...he say i'm so pathetic...be more brave la...so i go and sit back there after their team got up there...when he got back...he sit on my leg...its real or joking...i'm not sure...then Dorcas come back...and Terry sitting on her seat...so she sit on the other chair...beside Terry...so..i..EMO lor...haha...

After that..there's another thing...GC...he sat beside me...we talk..then i tell him secrets lor...and..i'm still emo that time...really sad...Dorcas ignore me...when i try to talk to her..she walk away really fast...no chance to talk to her...after Design 1 Class...we all go sunway walk walk...then have talk abit...she always think i'm angry at her..but i'm not...so...abit...xin tong..then later i talk with her about GC..then i say i told him secrets...so she angry me liao lo...she walk away so fast...i said sorry many times...but also no use...so..my emo become MORE EMO....no mood liao...so...thinking of going home..but don't want to make Dorcas misunderstand also...and my bags and stuff at Terry's car..then..they all try cheering me up...i ended up feeling better...they saw Dorcas with Terry again lor...maybe i'm just being selfish...haizzz....then we go mcd...both of them buy ice cream...then i was thinking of ice skating..haha..never done it before..then...Dorcas need to go back already...so...we all go back...Still feeling bad....its all my fault...SAD...EMO...

~Bittersweet Feeling~

Hmm..its been so long since i last update my blog..haha..hmm..college life was so-so...not good and not so bad either...but after here about one month...i feel...bittersweet feelings...haik haik...
Its like...i'm happy yet i'm sad...i wanted to smile yet i wanted to cry...these feelings are so painful...

Here goes the story, i met someone, a very cute and friendly person, she's my friend and my classmate....so many things happened......i like her..and *SECRETS*...maybe there's nothing that I can do....since i'm such a noob....but i really like her...don't know what will happened in the future...hope the best~wish the best...

On the other hand, there's another story. Its about my friend...at 1st..we both are so close..then after few days..i've been contacting, messaging and calling him to ask this and that..maybe he was too annoyed and didn't want to care about me anymore...so...that morning..i saw him...then he ignore me...he walk fast fast..then ask me.." why you don't want go class?" so..i straightaway go there...at that time..i knew...i lost a valuable friend....its most probably is my fault...i should know he is a more sensitive guy..yet i still keep asking him...sorry about that....i apologize...Hope its not too late to apologize...

And now, its about my beloved godsisters, its been so long since they last contact me...i'm not sure what they are doing or where they are now...maybe studying..haha...i still miss them as always..but everytime they like don't care me...i feel very bad about that...during school year..they treat me very nice...just like the big sisters that i always wanted...but...now...they changed already....i'm sad about that....maybe that's what its like to be mature...to let go somethings of the past...eventhough its something u care alot...If i have a chance..i just wanted to tell them..i miss them...hope them the best....

I think that's all im gonna blog for now...sad and tired...haha...take care. YANG!