Wednesday, March 31, 2010

~MyLife 31/03/2010...FML~

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hey...now im gonna talk bullshit about my life..since i ain't got things to do other than this...haha...hmmm...first start off with studying...well..now's back in my hometown...holiday...haha...for one fucking month....but...maybe will go to work or something..doesn't matter....haha...but i friggin' need some money......ohya..starting next semester all the students need a quite powerful computer...gonna learn maya....haha...so...decide to buy one desktop...but..nt sure how my parents think...especially my kai ma....she dont' want me to buy the desktop you customize yourself...so...still thinking about it...haha...next sem is 2nd year 1st sem...hmm...time fly so damn fast...oredi one year studying in the one...haha....


hmm...KL life is pretty nice...the place I live also not bad...it's not like super damn nice ok? I just got a roof over my head...and there's air-con...so i wont complain about the hot weather...haha...and...the house is located near my college...haha....can just walk there...around 5-7 minutes...haha...and also can walk to sunway pyramid...is just next to all the blocks of the TOA area...haha....and...in sunway pyramid...there's lots of lenglui...woots...damn sexy and cute....haha

...and now...wanna talk about my gan jie....my da jie and sha po jie...hmm...i used to have sister complex...but now...i think im slowly letting go of them...but no matter what happens...they will forever be my sisters...haha....they are so busy with their lives...and dun have any space left for me...so they push me aside...telling me that..everyone have their own path to walk....be more mature...that's wad shapo jie told me....hmmm....i got draw something for the both of them....dunno if they really like or not...its their portrait drawing by me....haha....hmm...guess that time...like form 4 & 5..they just playing around with me...treat me nice wad...and now...throw me away...making me hanging by a thread...but it's slowly breaking apart....I used to support them...to cheer them up when they are down....there's a time when da jie was damn emo...but now she okay liao...but i'm not the one who cheer her up.....haha....wadever la....all those are in the past...now its just nothing...but i will still support the both of them...miss u both always....hope i can be treated like the old times....

now, there's my love life...I like someone....who doesn't know about love....hmmm....wad should i do? I think i love her....but still not sure...maybe just brother sister love? am i the one who's confused? or am i just desperate for her? now...i don't feel like giving a shit anymore....been avoiding her....nt sure yet...but will face her soon....hope everything will be better...ohya...i'm losing hope in love...OMG...did i just fucking said that?! I usually very obsessed with love...but not this time...feel like its dying over time....because...love been giving me disappointment up till now....i'm not sure if this is a true feeling or not.....maybe just being tricked by myself...haha...i'm a person with many masks....

Now, i'm here....in my house....in my room....sitting on my bed...thinking...it's holiday but...i'm alone....my best fren gone to national service..and by the time he's back...i'm studying...and he's going singapore after that...what a coincidence....the time i came back...he go NS....and last time...it was...I come back miri....he go KL....what the hell.....haha....and my close frens....they all busy with their studies...projects...assignments...all these things....hhaha....but can't help right? study more important than going out with frens....guess i came back at a wrong time...haha....when they holiday...i'm busy studying...my college is so fucking awesome...haha....

...and...maybe soon...i will learn to drive...almost one year i didn't drive....haha...got my driver license but didn't mangae to drive a car...that's such a waste....i think i forgot how to drive already....or is it just that i'm not used to drive....not sure...havent try it yet...haha....wish me luck...XD

hmmm...alot of negatives things in my life...but i know..there's more positive...but...the negatives are stronger...easier to notice....people are like that...they see the negative and didn't notice the positive things around them....because it's too good....nothing to worry about right? my life is really fucked up...my thinking also...the confused...ME

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