Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any form of meaningful human contact. Lonely people often experience a subjective sense of inner emptiness or hollowness, with feelings of separation or isolation from the world.
To me, loneliness is one of my most hated feelings...when i was in primary school...i was usually lonely...and i'm quiet...so i'm hard to befriends with....but i do have some good friends...one of them is my best friend, Chai Han Kiong...when he was in primary 6...his family had to move to bintulu...so...he left Miri...i lost contact with him after i went into secondary school...he gave me his handphone number but i lost it....i still remember him until now...hahahaha...and after that time...i only have some chinese friends...there are some iban and malay friends...but they don't treat me very nice...sometimes they like...alienated me...completely ignoring me for a whole day...make fun of my name...and such...so i'm lonely at that time...hoping my best friend would come back. And in secondary school...when i was form 1...the iban and malay friends still have a habit of bullying me...sometimes they would steal my drinking bottle...still make fun of me..and other more horrible things...
But everything change when i was in form 2...there's my new best friend....his name is Aaron Wong Vun Heng...we both really like to draw...and we usually go everywhere together...both of our results are not so good though...but we really had good times together...he transfered into RRSS after he finished form 2...Oh ya...he also repeated a year in form 3 to take his PMR...We still have contact each other until now...we usually go shopping together...haha...for clothes...accessories...and such...we talk about girls and such...haha...
Other than that, there's my da jie and sha po jie...last year...we had so much fun together...hahaha...i would usually go hit their head lightly...and they would hit back...haha...they are very close to me...and i don't have a real jie jie...so...they are really important to me...and i love them very much...haha...they graduated from St.co last year...now they are working and studying....But i still not sure where they are going though...i will always remember them...
Now, it's just me and some good friends...sometimes...they would do homework together...but you know...i'm not good in studies...just good at drawing...so..normally..i ended up alone...drawing silently on my desk...waiting for someone to talk to me and accompany me...sometimes i will show my drawings to my friends...they would comment my drawing...but i can't really take criticism...but i will try to do better...hahaha....sometimes i feel i don't belong here...hope that someone will understand me better...i just don't want to be alone....KerO~
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