~Hey im back in Miri~

Okay...been damn long since i update....i'm back in miri by the way...holiday for a month...and its only me and pat that came back, ben's still in sunway. Hmm....i've join Dominance War V, still progressing....and now resting for abit....i will continue soon...hope so...haha....
ohya...my parents want me to go for blood donation...then got rejected cuz my blood haemogoblin is too high....and after that go for body check up....its not that good....so need to eat less fast food or oil food...and more on veggies....and gotta exercise....don't burn midnite oil....i will try....

well...i also went out with chan, doreen, bao, hua yuann, yu kee, siew ping, han thing, lu ming. Hmm...its qutie fun lo.....but sometimes i still feel lonely...i miss my best friend.....damn miss him....he's in singapore now....damn busy...well...all the best to him....

and that's not all....i feel pat and ben don't treat me that good already....i don't know what i've done....haih....it kept me thinking and thinking what's my mistake.....i treat them so good....how come they treat me like this....well....i've learn something from this....don't treat someone you know who won't treat you like how you treat them....maybe just even then it's better....

i'll waiting...for her....when will she show up? where are u? how long will i still have to wait? i'm so lonely....i need u....i thought about it...to be single....and everytime i think of that...i feel myself being empty.....like there's a hole in my heart....incomplete....

lonely vday

why did i try so hard to get her attention?...to get her to be interested in me? I already know the outcome...still...i tried so hard.....and to end up having another lonely valentine's day.......

~Really hope so~

Valentine's day is coming and i think i'm gonna be lonely again this year...when will be my chance? there's this girl who i'm in love with....but...i don't think she like me...but sometimes her actions makes me think otherwise....so i'm really confused....and this is dragging for quite sometime now....and i don't really have the courage to ask her out....i need a push or some positive reactions from her....i really hope i can be with her....hope we can be more understanding of each other and to know more about her....hope that she have time for me....

I'm desperate...but i don't know how to be not desperate....i need love to keep me going....without it...i'm an empty soul....
so...to those lovers out there....wish you guys happy and cherish your love relationship =D

Cheers

~Feeling left out~

Today is christmas eve....went out with eugene and cj....then watch movie and have dinner with them....
I wanted to go for the countdown but no one's there....walao....sad dao...then my housemates and friends all go somewhere far to eat and go for the countdown....

I'm all here alone....no one to accompany me to go for countdown....
One thing i hate the most is being left out....makes me feel i dun have friends....haihhhh....
y i keep getting all these negative feelings? why do u keep treating me like this??? FUCK!

~Where are my friends?~

I'm sad....to hear that...where are my friends? or do i even have friends?
Friends treat each other nicely rite? I'm all alone....after all

I'm in KL....in a house...got 2 good housemates....but I feel like they don't care anymore....
Is it because of stress? people changed? or is this fake.....faking it all along?

Well...I take relationship seriously.....now i really am pissed off....

When I'm like this....hoping someone will cheer me up...i want to go home....
I hope it isn't like this back at my hometown.....

~L!Fe-How everything doesn't turn out the way u planned~

Oh, how i'm pissed of the things that doesnt turn out the way i planned. I know this makes life interesting but its just not fair. It making me disappointed with life. Whenever i feel like this i want something good to make me forget this feeling. I always keep my feelings bottled up in myself. Im scared if will burst and hurt my friends and family.
I want to go out and have fun to release out all this motherf*cking feelings trapped in me.......wanna go to somewhere abandoned and destroy stuffs with a sledge hammer.....or go clubbing with my close friends....get drunk and get wasted.....
The way i think about it, this world is cruel, filled with cruel people. People get hurt everyday, let's just pray for the victims to be better. And pray that luck is with them. And also with us. Cherish every moment you're with close friends, lovers or family. Nothing last forever and everyone will separate one day, and that makes us who we are today. That makes our bonds become stronger....also sometimes this bond make break and never to heard from it again.

~Heart Melts~

It's been quite long, ever since i go to this korean wave thing, i saw someone, it was probably love at first sight. But now, everytime she is busy, so busy until no time to chat with her, i wanted to know more about her but there's always no chance. I feel like it is just an excuse to push me away, hoping i will give up eventually. But I wont give up so easily. Even if she told me she's busy, it's a good enough reply to keep me happy the rest of the day. Usually she will just ignore or no reply. Maybe all of this is just me thinking too much cause i tend to do that alot.
But now, I think i can't help it, this feeling is getting stronger and stronger. Mostly i will go to her facebook profile and see what she's up to, sometimes i feel jealous, sometimes feel happy to see her smiling so happy like that. One of the good point i like about her is her smile, hope i can make her smile. I want her to be mine so badly. And i want her to return my feelings too. That is what i hoped for. I dreamed of her, but its not really a good dream, we're walking and i saw her, but she didnt see me..and she just walk pass me, like there's no one there. I know this dream is a bad sign. Even though i quite know where this is going, i still keep hanging on and not letting go of this small hope.