~Happy Birthday Chuan Jiet!!!~

 happy 19th birthday to chuan jiet. hmmm...ok..lets start...i first met with eugene...he pass through sunway pyramid...so i join his bus....then we go to chuan jiet's apartment...by the time we got there he is still working...he's working in a small italian restaurant...and it's near his house too....so its good....hmmm...and we eat at there....its like damn expensive...rm24 for a spaghetti carbonara....drink about rm6 for an ice lemon tea....bt chuan jiet gave us 40% discount with the taylor student discount. and after spending about few hours at the restaurant..they were watching football...betting on it....its like their crazy about it....haha...im not much of a football person...so i don't really get it...i know its very fun to scream "goal!!!" .After that, we sang happy bday song to cj...and eat the delicious cake...i think its called opera...nt sure why....its coffee + chocolate and something else....haha....and after that we went back to cj and lawrence's apartment....ohya...forgot to mention, lawrence is also with us....then we go play pool at club9...wow...its not bad...its good...we play and watch abit football....then...play pool is nice...havent done that in a long time...haha...then we go to asia cafe to drink and watch football again...then chat abit...then about 4am..then we go back to their apartment...wow...im like damn tired...haha....CHEERIO!!!

~Is it me?~

hmm...been in my class for the second sem now...but...i feel...they don't know me...maybe i'm not suited for that class? or maybe its the people in there...always thinking like that....being shallowminded....no matter what i say...it always end up bad...or is it the way i talk to people? y can't they understand what i'm saying...
haih..maybe its my fault oso...im not that good at communicating with people =.=....always says the wrong things....

~The Boy~

The boy is waiting stupidly in the cold....and no one knew what he was going through...faking a smile so that others wont worry about him.or cause any ruckus...acting tough...to cover up the scars on his body....wishing that someday...all of this will just be a dream....wait and wait...even now...still waiting....

~My Wavering Heart~

hmm...i'm so in a mess right now...i don't want to hear from someone anymore...i don't wanna care about that....i will forget everything about that...whatever..maybe i'm just being childish but...like what i said last time...how to get fruits from a tree that doesnt even bear fruits...so..i decided to give up...actually...i already give up some time ago...just that i don't wanna talk about it...

...and now...i think im falling in love with someone...love a first sight? hmm...it's always this...and in the end...it's just something else...and got real disappointed...but...i feel different this time...or maybe its just a hunch...haha....and u know...my communicating skill is not that good...im more of a quiet guy...that lives in solitude...haha...no la...i got alot of friends....but...im not really talkative...haha...but can be talkative with someone im comfortable with....then i'll just say anything to them...haha...

my heart wavers...because..im still not sure this love is gonna go...abit scared...excited...but...i know...if i dont take action now...nothing's gonna change right? so...i'm gonna give it a shot......

~Leaving Miri, Hello KL~

im gonna leave miri soon...going back KL...class startson monday....and settle some things...haih....alot problems lately...hope something can take me from all the problems....for awhile enough already.....haih....wadever...hmmm..hope in kl will be better...will cheer up...concentrate on studies....go out watch movie with friends...do some digital drawing....go out play...XD...haha....
came back at a wrong time this time...haha...gonna plan before come back...haha....should choose holiday time to come back....okok...that's all i wanna say today...bye~

~Miss my bestfren~

wow...i damn miss my best friend...haih...feel want go out with him...and talk about everything...haih...need some heart to heart talk also so hard....wanna express myself and tell him all the shit that i've been through...and hear his shitty days in the cruel fucking bitchy world....hmmm..been very fucking depressed lately...short and hot tempered....and keep enduring it in myself...not even releasing one bit...feel like crying...feel like dying...wth...FML....
haha....dont bother la....im going back KL soon....hope my mood will be better there...and hope to find a gf soon....XD...haha....i don't want to always feel like this...its bad for my health also...being this emo....i'm fucked!

~Loneliness~

haha....hmmm...after working...I decided i wanted to go out to have fun tonight....but...no one seems to be free now....haha....so ended up not going anywhere...and after that..happens few more nights...they busy...haha...i know they are studying and i came back at a wrong time...haha....but...i kinda need some friends accompany.....been very lonely lately...if can out 2 times a week that will be nice...haha......hmmm....what to do now?...if only my best friend is still in miri...haha...he's in miri but he got national service...so...can't enjoy our time together....haha....before he went to NS...i went to his house to sleepover...talk alot of things....secrets...etc etc...haha...drink beer....talk secrets...woah...that's damn nice...haha....and when he finished his NS..maybe will go singapore....and we'll be busy studying our ass off...haha...but will probably find him if im free...haha.......