~49 Days, a very nice korean drama~

Today just finished watching this korean drama...49 days....it's really nice...really touching...and almost cried alot of times....haha....it's about a girl who's not supposed to die...what she went through and know the truths about her life....and her body is left in a vegetative state....and the only way for her to return to her body is to get 3 tear drops from the ones that love her the most...the tear must be 100% pure....

This is one of the best korean drama...i've seen so far....storyline....characters...twist....all damn nice....it really changes how i think...how people think...good morale values in it...=D

CHEERIO!

~Finally holiday~

Finally holiday...been quite a busy for the past few weeks...but now i'm free...but still got things to do....need to attend some class for self improvement and do some personal work for portfolio and such....the future is coming faster and faster to me...it feels like i just started going to college...and now....gonna graduate soon....time flies....i heard before...someone said....time flies faster when we get older....that's all for today....will post somemore when i got time~ CHEERIO~

~Hey I'm back in KL~

well...i'm back in kl...class started last week....and it's been quite fun...went swimming with friends.....this semester...we can choose to take both modeling 2 and animation 2...it's a good thing...since my animation sucks like hell....i will try my best in it....now i'm in class DG0908-1...hope that i can know some of new friends in the class...
I just finished my dominance war v entry...and maybe will refine it some more or just leave it like that....it's a very good experience....to get critiques from different people....and see and learn from them...but...I almost gave up on it....luckily i didn't...i gt motivation from my friend....he said...just finish what you started...even though this is just a simply phrase...but it got a lot of meaning in it....so...i decided to continue with it and finished it....and yea...it's done...i couldn't have done it without the support of my friends and the people in the forum...so thank you.
Ok...and there's the other thing...i wanted to make more friends...to be more socialize....there is this girl...maybe i have a little interest in her....i wanted to get to know her....i've seen her quite sometime now...but didn't know her name...and didn't ask about it either...then i think of it now...is it wrong to have more friends? i don't want to regret not knowing her.....

~Hey im back in Miri~

Okay...been damn long since i update....i'm back in miri by the way...holiday for a month...and its only me and pat that came back, ben's still in sunway. Hmm....i've join Dominance War V, still progressing....and now resting for abit....i will continue soon...hope so...haha....
ohya...my parents want me to go for blood donation...then got rejected cuz my blood haemogoblin is too high....and after that go for body check up....its not that good....so need to eat less fast food or oil food...and more on veggies....and gotta exercise....don't burn midnite oil....i will try....

well...i also went out with chan, doreen, bao, hua yuann, yu kee, siew ping, han thing, lu ming. Hmm...its qutie fun lo.....but sometimes i still feel lonely...i miss my best friend.....damn miss him....he's in singapore now....damn busy...well...all the best to him....

and that's not all....i feel pat and ben don't treat me that good already....i don't know what i've done....haih....it kept me thinking and thinking what's my mistake.....i treat them so good....how come they treat me like this....well....i've learn something from this....don't treat someone you know who won't treat you like how you treat them....maybe just even then it's better....

i'll waiting...for her....when will she show up? where are u? how long will i still have to wait? i'm so lonely....i need u....i thought about it...to be single....and everytime i think of that...i feel myself being empty.....like there's a hole in my heart....incomplete....

lonely vday

why did i try so hard to get her attention?...to get her to be interested in me? I already know the outcome...still...i tried so hard.....and to end up having another lonely valentine's day.......

~Really hope so~

Valentine's day is coming and i think i'm gonna be lonely again this year...when will be my chance? there's this girl who i'm in love with....but...i don't think she like me...but sometimes her actions makes me think otherwise....so i'm really confused....and this is dragging for quite sometime now....and i don't really have the courage to ask her out....i need a push or some positive reactions from her....i really hope i can be with her....hope we can be more understanding of each other and to know more about her....hope that she have time for me....

I'm desperate...but i don't know how to be not desperate....i need love to keep me going....without it...i'm an empty soul....
so...to those lovers out there....wish you guys happy and cherish your love relationship =D

Cheers

~Feeling left out~

Today is christmas eve....went out with eugene and cj....then watch movie and have dinner with them....
I wanted to go for the countdown but no one's there....walao....sad dao...then my housemates and friends all go somewhere far to eat and go for the countdown....

I'm all here alone....no one to accompany me to go for countdown....
One thing i hate the most is being left out....makes me feel i dun have friends....haihhhh....
y i keep getting all these negative feelings? why do u keep treating me like this??? FUCK!

~Where are my friends?~

I'm sad....to hear that...where are my friends? or do i even have friends?
Friends treat each other nicely rite? I'm all alone....after all

I'm in KL....in a house...got 2 good housemates....but I feel like they don't care anymore....
Is it because of stress? people changed? or is this fake.....faking it all along?

Well...I take relationship seriously.....now i really am pissed off....

When I'm like this....hoping someone will cheer me up...i want to go home....
I hope it isn't like this back at my hometown.....

~L!Fe-How everything doesn't turn out the way u planned~

Oh, how i'm pissed of the things that doesnt turn out the way i planned. I know this makes life interesting but its just not fair. It making me disappointed with life. Whenever i feel like this i want something good to make me forget this feeling. I always keep my feelings bottled up in myself. Im scared if will burst and hurt my friends and family.
I want to go out and have fun to release out all this motherf*cking feelings trapped in me.......wanna go to somewhere abandoned and destroy stuffs with a sledge hammer.....or go clubbing with my close friends....get drunk and get wasted.....
The way i think about it, this world is cruel, filled with cruel people. People get hurt everyday, let's just pray for the victims to be better. And pray that luck is with them. And also with us. Cherish every moment you're with close friends, lovers or family. Nothing last forever and everyone will separate one day, and that makes us who we are today. That makes our bonds become stronger....also sometimes this bond make break and never to heard from it again.

~Heart Melts~

It's been quite long, ever since i go to this korean wave thing, i saw someone, it was probably love at first sight. But now, everytime she is busy, so busy until no time to chat with her, i wanted to know more about her but there's always no chance. I feel like it is just an excuse to push me away, hoping i will give up eventually. But I wont give up so easily. Even if she told me she's busy, it's a good enough reply to keep me happy the rest of the day. Usually she will just ignore or no reply. Maybe all of this is just me thinking too much cause i tend to do that alot.
But now, I think i can't help it, this feeling is getting stronger and stronger. Mostly i will go to her facebook profile and see what she's up to, sometimes i feel jealous, sometimes feel happy to see her smiling so happy like that. One of the good point i like about her is her smile, hope i can make her smile. I want her to be mine so badly. And i want her to return my feelings too. That is what i hoped for. I dreamed of her, but its not really a good dream, we're walking and i saw her, but she didnt see me..and she just walk pass me, like there's no one there. I know this dream is a bad sign. Even though i quite know where this is going, i still keep hanging on and not letting go of this small hope.

~what a sick day~

Today woke up at 930am++ then took a bath, after that felt a bit weird, feeling weak, no energy...then go back to sleep again, hoping i will be better after some rest. Woke up and feeling worse, feeling nausea. Then eat some medicine and sleep somemore. Whole day i've been sleeping and resting, without even touching my assignments, wasted today away....i have a test tomorrow and i havent study for it....damn...life's a bitch...

~11/10/10 Rest In Peace Lokie~

Today, i called my mom, like usual, everytime i got back from college i will call her....she ask me wanna hear a bad news or not? i said yeah....she say Lokie is dead.....i'm a bit speechless....and sad....
So many bad things happened at a time...I hope you will be happy in the afterlife.....goodbye and good luck my beloved dog, Lokie.

27August

Hmm..today went out with chan, today we celebrate useless mei's bday even though already past. Firstly, chan came to my house, chat and exchange some movie, games etc. After that then we go to bamboo cafe, its kinda like a home cafe or something, not much people know about that place but its quite popular...haha...its quite nice, i think it only opens at night, open till 2am...can hang out with friends at that place...inside the cafe is quite dark...so the atmosphere is quite nice in there...haha...so chan and i chat while waiting for our useless mei...she's late...after some chit chat then here she comes...then we go order and eat our dinner there....hmm...it's kinda funny....it's like they haven't talked in ages...they only come out when i'm back in miri...HAHA...and everytime we will hear useless mei complain about her school, i know i know...the school sucks...after finished eating, useless mei go to her "friend"'s place....and chan took me to go for a ride....site seeing...at canada hill....its nice...i so miss that place....feels nostalgic...haha...the dark starry night...and the city lights...with some cool breezes....haha...that's all..haha

~Sohai day with best bud~

haha...today is such a funny day...outing with aaron...first off...i went to his house...then his dad drove us to imperial area.....then we go our "usual hang out place"....eat some spaghetti....and have some drinks together...chit chat...then went to a cybercafe near the place...then play alot of games....lfd2, demigod, hon, cs, etc etc...then after that...resting and time for dinner....again...we go back to the hang out place and eat some more spaghetti...after finished it...then order the 2nd round...wow....so unbelievable....haha....so we had 3 spaghetti meals altogether...and at the same place....and we back to the cybercafe again and play somemore.....and that's about it....one day just flew away with some games and spaghetti...

~whenever i feel unsatisfied with life...i will come here and complain about it~

what a day....hmm...how will u feel when u did something and put alot of effort into it...but someone else come and just take it away from you and still complain...well...i'm doing my moral notes and exercises....after finishing it all night...the next day..my friend ask me to lend it to him...what the fuck?! could even copy from the textbook...all the answers are in there...and notes....why u didn't copy in the class? need  to ask from me at a time like this? if I didn't lend it to you, you will say i'm a bad friend? say u wanted to save time to do other assignments? what about me? why don't i just copy from someone else? ok...i'm being a selfish bastard...but you never think of how other people felt....
hmm...im stressing and now i'm complaining..maybe i just need some rest...stress makes me talk like this....

~Update~

hmm...since chan asked why i didnt update...here's an update for ya....life's been pretty stressed lately....maybe because of the assignment from my college...and nothing much going on in my life...the usuals....hmmm...ohya...i missed alot of movies at the cinema....cause some of my time is busy like hell....but still manage to watch some movies though...recently watched prdators and inception....haha...inception is very nice...recommend to watch....so...i think thats about it...cherrio~

~Happy Birthday Chuan Jiet!!!~

 happy 19th birthday to chuan jiet. hmmm...ok..lets start...i first met with eugene...he pass through sunway pyramid...so i join his bus....then we go to chuan jiet's apartment...by the time we got there he is still working...he's working in a small italian restaurant...and it's near his house too....so its good....hmmm...and we eat at there....its like damn expensive...rm24 for a spaghetti carbonara....drink about rm6 for an ice lemon tea....bt chuan jiet gave us 40% discount with the taylor student discount. and after spending about few hours at the restaurant..they were watching football...betting on it....its like their crazy about it....haha...im not much of a football person...so i don't really get it...i know its very fun to scream "goal!!!" .After that, we sang happy bday song to cj...and eat the delicious cake...i think its called opera...nt sure why....its coffee + chocolate and something else....haha....and after that we went back to cj and lawrence's apartment....ohya...forgot to mention, lawrence is also with us....then we go play pool at club9...wow...its not bad...its good...we play and watch abit football....then...play pool is nice...havent done that in a long time...haha...then we go to asia cafe to drink and watch football again...then chat abit...then about 4am..then we go back to their apartment...wow...im like damn tired...haha....CHEERIO!!!

~Is it me?~

hmm...been in my class for the second sem now...but...i feel...they don't know me...maybe i'm not suited for that class? or maybe its the people in there...always thinking like that....being shallowminded....no matter what i say...it always end up bad...or is it the way i talk to people? y can't they understand what i'm saying...
haih..maybe its my fault oso...im not that good at communicating with people =.=....always says the wrong things....

~The Boy~

The boy is waiting stupidly in the cold....and no one knew what he was going through...faking a smile so that others wont worry about him.or cause any ruckus...acting tough...to cover up the scars on his body....wishing that someday...all of this will just be a dream....wait and wait...even now...still waiting....

~My Wavering Heart~

hmm...i'm so in a mess right now...i don't want to hear from someone anymore...i don't wanna care about that....i will forget everything about that...whatever..maybe i'm just being childish but...like what i said last time...how to get fruits from a tree that doesnt even bear fruits...so..i decided to give up...actually...i already give up some time ago...just that i don't wanna talk about it...

...and now...i think im falling in love with someone...love a first sight? hmm...it's always this...and in the end...it's just something else...and got real disappointed...but...i feel different this time...or maybe its just a hunch...haha....and u know...my communicating skill is not that good...im more of a quiet guy...that lives in solitude...haha...no la...i got alot of friends....but...im not really talkative...haha...but can be talkative with someone im comfortable with....then i'll just say anything to them...haha...

my heart wavers...because..im still not sure this love is gonna go...abit scared...excited...but...i know...if i dont take action now...nothing's gonna change right? so...i'm gonna give it a shot......