~Feeling left out~

Today is christmas eve....went out with eugene and cj....then watch movie and have dinner with them....
I wanted to go for the countdown but no one's there....walao....sad dao...then my housemates and friends all go somewhere far to eat and go for the countdown....

I'm all here alone....no one to accompany me to go for countdown....
One thing i hate the most is being left out....makes me feel i dun have friends....haihhhh....
y i keep getting all these negative feelings? why do u keep treating me like this??? FUCK!

~Where are my friends?~

I'm sad....to hear that...where are my friends? or do i even have friends?
Friends treat each other nicely rite? I'm all alone....after all

I'm in KL....in a house...got 2 good housemates....but I feel like they don't care anymore....
Is it because of stress? people changed? or is this fake.....faking it all along?

Well...I take relationship seriously.....now i really am pissed off....

When I'm like this....hoping someone will cheer me up...i want to go home....
I hope it isn't like this back at my hometown.....